Life... Is so awsome. I have a lot of good things going on in my life. Lets start with people I've been hanging out with, there awsome. I meet 3 new chicks they work in side the mall with me but not at PACSUN. There lesbians of course and there hooking me up with a killer skateboard with a hella good discount. I like the board because it's babyblue, we all chill like every day we all have a day off, it's awsome. Some, dumb fuck called my phone the other evening and said there from NC basketball coaches accoation, witch I thought was fucking funny scence they said they thought I was sleeping and they were calling from Europe...That was funny.....Any way lets clear some things up. If I wasgoing to graduate this past year I was soposed to sing the graduation song.... And I have my Nc paper work for basketball as an exceptence there don't get me wrong that was only if  I was to move there and have a few colleges classes and high school one's as well... I have 3 jobs and I approved for my own apartment for sept. 31 and getting a car. But, the people that choose to discuss my personal life online I think it's quite funny, awww they still think about me...I must be real important to them. You know what I'm proud of, I do shit on my own....I don't need my daddy, a girlfriend, or my friends to (A) buy me things, (B) pump my gas one day, and (C) I dont make whomever I may be with at the time my lil bitch..... I have been taking damn good care of my self and I'm proud. I have had no stress in my life scence I quit hanging out with people who have there heads so far up there asses they need there daddy to pull it out. People say I'm white trash ,yah ok thats why I got good credit, 3 jobs, getting my own place, and the people I now hangout with I know aren't two faced and are fake. I am very content with my life and thats all I need. Sammie or Buddha if you read my journal none of this pertanes to you guy's. Well, and to make something perfectcally clear I did not diss on Sammie at all and I do care for her so if whomevere don't believe me can kiss my white ass. On that note I'll get back to my fucking great day and I'm out...

Krystal

Tryed, to strech my hole in my lowerhole today but it hurt to much....I got the bigger one thew but, I felt fant....So I put a smaller big one in ...If that just made scence. Ok, well back to life, it's been different but good, good! Well, yah ummm I ate an awsome dinner last night, I made stake and backed beans. "Yummmm" Oh, yah my grandma sent me my money and I think that is the best high light I have had yet... And I'd have to thank my father for that one...Thanks dad! Well, I'm out and busy chillen with peeps. SO, bye bye to all and have a good day.

~Krys~

[	Current Mood	|	amused	]
[	Current Music	|	am I wrong	]

Yep is all i really can say....I'm no longer putting my biz on the internet, due to the fact that most people love to gosip! I don't know life is well.... life, it's going to give people obstacles weather it be good, bad, easy, or heard... Unfortunatly it has brought me (D) all of they above. I would not say life is diffacult as of this moment but, it is a tad hecktic I guess. Work at all 3 jobs are going great and money is comming with no set backs. I enjoy doing retail because I get to meet lots of new people and see new thing. I have not had a lot of time to spend with anyone but, that's just part of life. I've been quit busy and occupied due to holding 3 jobs. In my opinion, I believe that has been a great accomplishment for me. I don't depend on no one to buy anything for me or support me as well. I have been doing awsome! But, you know what I don't understand why do people tack such low blows to others when they simply made a small mistake?? It may be to make themselves feel better or to just make the other person hurt....But in the end it was or may be uncalled for. I know I'm jumping around to subject to subject but I'am me and I'am venting. Ok, so on the topic of what freinds are to me.... A friend is not someone who hits you well your down, or drops you because of who else you may want to hang out with reguardless the situation.A friend is not someone who would take a low blow at you for any reason, espcially when you've done nothing wrong.A friend is not someone who will juge your mistakes, but rather then to help you threw them... A friend is someone who will be there for you. A friend is someone who should and would never hurt you in any way. A friend is someone you can bond with and get to know, threw the thick and thin. A friend is there for you threw the good times and the bad. What I've realized these past few days are I only have a few good and real friends and thats all I need..... Like I said before I'am who I'am and thats all I can be. I may not have graduated from high school yet but, soon I surely will. Someone said to me last night what do you have to be proud of?? And in responce I said living, going to work, supporting myself, not holding grudges, and just getting stuff done with my life. Well, These past few day's have tought me alot and I know now the only one I can trust and believe is myself.... New topic (Love) this topic has become a joke in my eyes. I say that because, I may have dated many but only have loved few....and all whome I've said I loved, I've now have lost....I say that in a deep *sigh* with my head hugn low. I will not dewl on it as well, as all I will stand tall and keep going......On that note I'm going to go. Bye...

~Krys~

[	Current Mood	|	Sad	]
[	Current Music	|	I miss you (Blink 182)	]

Sitting back thinking as usual... *sigh* I feel so ehhh today it's not even funny. I don't know I should be happy sammie and I are dating again, but there's something there that still is making my day sad. For those of you who like to read my journal and about my personal biz then if you have any questions please don't comment on my journal's just call me if you want to know something. My number is 1-702-496-4102 ok? Umm, so yah life has been good I but sad as well lately. You know when your trying to do well in life that your trying to make everyone happy including yourself?? Well, I've been trying to do that and it just does not see good enough. I can't make anyone happy right now espically myself. I feel as if I'm always stuck in between a rock in a hard place when it comes to my family and my friends... pluse I'm doing 3 jobs and stuff you know. *sigh* again....I just wanna feel loved by the people that say they love me you know. Like my family and friends and my girl. Right now I feel negalated or how ever you spell it. theses past few days have not been my best... I almost lost my roomate, I had broken up with Sammie, I got kicked out of Mickie's, I moved in for a few weeks with my mom, My mother is still doing drugs so I don't really like to be there, then I feel if I hang out with my friends that my other friends don't like then I'll lose friends.... And in my opinion I should and no one should eveer have to feel that way. I know deep down in my heart everything will be ok but as of right now I just feel blank. Mel, Noel, and Buddha are really good friends to me in my opinion and I'd do nothing to betray there friendship or loose them as friends and I always feel that I might loose them sometimes. I also want to put it out there that I would never try and break up Mel and Noel ever!!! I enjoy talking to them both but somethings I can talk to Mel about that other people may not understand. I don't know I'm not trying to replace anyone I just need someone to talk to about thing quit often. Noel and Buddha I'm not saying I can't talk to you about stuff it's just I can talk to Mel because she is the only one I can feel most comfortable right now to open up to. I know Noel, Mel tell's you everything and thats great I think she should I just need a person I can vent to you know. But I hope you all enjoy your trip for sure. yeah!! lol As, for my love life it is good and i hope everything gets better and stronger. As for life I don't know.... But I do know I will habg out with whomever I want and if people get pissed at me for doing so that's wrong... And then there not being understanding on how I feel as there friend or as a person. I just want to chill with my friends and move in with Noel, continue dating Sammie and know everything will be ok. Well, here are a few other things. I hope sammie were ok and everything is fine. ummm, ok guys I'm crying again like a lil pussy so I'm out bye.

Lots Of Lesbian Hugs

~Krys~

Well, not much to say about life lately but it's been good and it's been bad. I work at Kohl's now thanks to Mel. I think I will like working there alot. I can't wait till I can move out and in with Noel, life living with Mickie is well hurtfull, both physically, and mentally. I just can't take it anymore. I ended up in the (ER) this morning due to drama with her and I'm just so done it's not even funny. I just need to get away from all that shit and move on and move up with my new roommate. I know everything will be ok. I have good people looking out for me and I know that they care. Well, I love chillen with Mel, Noel and Buddha we have good times. But I miss Sammie very much and can't wait till she get's home. Well, on that note guys I'm out.

Krystal

[	Current Mood	|	lonely	]
[	Current Music	|	Lets get married	]

    Let's start this out with a *sigh*.... I've hella been  stressing lately and I can't even pin point one specific thing. I don't know these past few days have been fun and I've been hanging out with Noel, Mel, and Buddha and it's been awsome. But, I still find myself crying sometime threw out the day... I miss Sammie a lot and that is getting to me. I'm stressing about not seeing her, getting the money on time for Noels and I move in date, then finding eigther one really good fulltime job, or two really good part time ones! Oh, yah when hanging out with all of them it's cool we all just chill and act like crazy people. Yelling at the Asians...lol Nah, but for a few nights now they have taken me to Valley's basketball courts to shoot some hoops and let me tell you it felt damn good to throw a ball around with some friends again. I really miss basketball as well... That was my life and anyone who knows me, knows that, Thanks guys. Oh yah one evening when were at the courts Noel and I were acting dumb and crazy and all I can say is I have never seen a white girl jump a wall that high! lol also that same evening we were looking for a rope so we could make a swing on this thing that was by the track but no rope, got beat up by Mel's van, and some crack headed guy's were yelling at us all. I hate P.M.S.I.N.G. it suck the big one. The past two weekes for me have been good as well as the whole emontions thing I got going on. I don't know, I really got nothing to be sad about I guess someone tought me that and the person is right as always. I got to get ride of (PEANUT) a.k.a (POTATO) tomarrow and that makes me sad too.AHHHH, I hate female monthly's grrrr. But no in all reality I'm very happy and it's been good. Well, everyone I just thought I'd let my mind wonder and fill you all in, so on that note I'm out. Love you baby MUAH:0)

Krystal

    Ok, so I'm at sammie's house right now and were all lestening to music, being Rick, Sammie, and I.  Sammie leaves tomarrow and she will be gone for two weeks and a day and it will realy suck... But I will still get to talk to her and know were happy and doing ok. I'm kinda hyper today because I drank another boost energy drink this morrning. I stood up kinda late and woke up sorta late as well. But today Mel, Noel, Buddha, and I are going job hunting and I know I will get a better job and show everyone I have changed for the better and I'll do ok. I do have to go back to Valley for 3 months to get my depolmia but I will do it.  I can't wait till Noel and I move in to our new apartment because she will be close to Mel and I wil be just as close to Sammie. "yay" :0)!!! But yah I'm goig to go spend time with my girlfriend before shehas to leave. I love you baby... MUAH :0)

Krystal

[	Current Mood	|	loved	]
[	Current Music	|	Sappy love songs on the centers radio... lol	]

Aww, this is Sammie and her friends in there basketball uniforms...cuteness!!!

Now, one of my baby in her uniform..... ::Drool:: muah baby I love you!

Now one of just her lookin all cute.... She is a sweetie and she loves her hair. Muah baby I think you look cute and I love you lots and will miss you lots as well. Muah! :0)

Ok, guy's this is all till tomarrow if I got time. Bye to all...

Krystal